[23-08-18 10:54:29] Devit: Haha nah you’re more part of my sweeter dreams;) except for the part we were picknicking at a lake, surrounded by mountains and you picked a fish out of the lake, put it between a sandwich with his tail still flipping and give it for me to eat. I did’t like that. So I threw it back in the lake. You of course being mad and sad that I didn’t appreciate your cooking.. well and so on…;)
[23-08-18 11:15:00] Nastya: Funny thing also about the lake, but without fishing. Evening, we were sitting on the shore of the lake, it was getting darker, watching sun going down, without talking, as in such moments no words are needed and so on..;) [23-08-18 16:10:01] Devit: …well the fish swam away and left me with you alone. While you became more angry and sad a big dark cloud apeared. Day became night. Light came dark. A perfect blue sky became a scary dark thunderstorm and when your tears fell off your cheek it started to rain. I felt hopeless and desperate. Whatever I tried, it only made it worse.
I decided to bring you to a appletree which was standing there and even with the lighting around us it felt like a good place to find some shelter for the rain. The apples on the tree were rotten and a few were laying on the ground. In one of them was a little pink worm. He came out the apple with his belly all stuffed and round. Slowly he crawled to my feet and crawled slowly via my legs up to my chest, neck and ear. While my first thought would have been ‘iew!’ I just let him. I had other things to worry about with you beside me. When he was at my ear he made a really soft squeeky sound. The first thought was of course ‘huh?!’ But feeling desperate I just let it be… well and so on..;)
[23-08-18 20:39:28] Nastya: …the sound of the water, soft wind and the bright shadows of red, yellow and pink of the sun getting down on the water were giving a feeling of calmness, tenderness and happiness. Just sitting next to each other, our shoulders tenderly touching each other made my heart full of joy. Then the sun was down, a warm evening was changing to a cool one. I wanted to stay there and waiting for the bright stars to be out, that we could lay down and sharing stories about distant stars and so on [24-08-18 00:55:08] Devit:..If this was just a fairytale the worm would speak and would give me some words of advise that would give it’s magic to you, but this wasn’t a fairytale. It was a horrible nightmare I was in.
So when the worm made his squeeky sound I took him from my ear and decided to send him on a inventive adventure. I mean, I just wanted to do something nice. So I took a few leafs and a few twigs from the tree and made a little sailboat for the worm.
I asked you to join me to send him on his adventure. It made you curious and while we were running to the lake, the storm began milder. No more thunder and lightning. Just us wet in the dark and the just found worm. I gave the little sailboat to you and I put the little worm on his boat.
While it gave you your first smiles again the dark clouds vanished and slowly the sun starting to rise on the horizon. It gave us warmth and happiness again and inspired you for crocheting a little hat for our little wormy captain. I gave our little friend a small speech for his unknown journey ahead. It went something like this: “Oh captain my tiny captain. Your sails are set. An adventure awaits. While the future is unknown, sail with the wind in your back. Perhaps you will find some sharks on your route, but know a true sailor sails with open sails and a wide smile, because whatever your future will bring, your journey is already larger and exciting then staying your whole life in a apple.” With those words we put our little friend in the water and give him together his first wind in his sails.
At this moment there was no darkness anymore. The sun was starting to get brighter and the sky became more clear. I looked back at the appletree we just came from and it was now full of healthy red apples. I turned my face and eyes to you still wet of the rain, but there was a red blush on your cheeks and a happy smile within. I stroke my hands slowly through your hair and from there to your neck, shoulder, arms till I finally held your hands between mine….. and so on
[24-08-18 08:39:21] Nastya: …first stars appeared in the sky, then more and more and by midnight the full sky was covered with bright stars shining to each other and us. We were laying next to each other, mosquitoes flying unseen only hearing their bzzz sound, we were trying to send them away making arms and legs movements.
I guess stars looking at us were finding it as a funny dance of micronano particles. Still it wasn’t matter as I was showing you a crown made of stars, a dolphin, big and small bears walking the sky, a Swan flying over the milky way. When you were telling a story of a beautiful polar star that shines even brighter in Alaska.
As time was passing unnoticed, still wet grass and coolness of the night started to be felt. You felt me a bit shivering and said: “come closer to me” and opened your arms for me to put my head on your shoulder and leaning closer to you. You could feel my warm breath into your neck and I continued listening your stories coming almost directly into my ear. The warmth of our bodies made this moment even more magical.
I could stay their forever, but it was time to leave this place. You saw me becoming more silent and sad about leaving. And you sad: “don’t be sad, the magic is inside us, keep your heart open and more beautiful moments will come” and added “let’s have a warm tea”. I said: “and I’ll make an apple pie?” you: “with nuts?” me: “nuts and ice cream”. You smiled warmly, kissed my hair, gave me your hand to get up and we went holding hands towards new, yet unknown beautiful moments…. [24-08-18 11:31:50] Devit: Good morning!
I thought it was a nightmare, but there was a little bit more to tell:
…When I held your hands between mine we looked at eachother. We both seem to have a slightly shy smile. It was a moment we were vulnerable. We both looked deeper in eachother eyes. While sinking deeper and passing through the mirrors of your soul, the world around us dissapeard. It was just you and me.
Passing through the lights and darks of your soul I noticed a little island with a strong blue light from it. I went to there and while wondering around I saw lost souls of people I don’t know. I followed a path till I arrived at a large vault. More people were there. Some where fine just sitting there, some where desperate getting in. I didn’t felt I need explaining. Somehow everything felt familiar, while I’ve never been here, I just knew what to do.
Just by true faith and trust I ignored there was a big door and walked straight through it leaving the others outside. Inside there was a big blue orb which gave the light I saw earlier and attracted all other people to the island. While looking around I saw different lines connected to the orb which all connected to a specific fire color. They were all giving their energy to the orb.
When I looked closer I noticed one wasn’t lit and I felt I needed to put it on, so I did. When I lighted the last fire a whole new energy passed through the line. The earth was shaking and the orb changed from blue to yellow. Almost as bright as the sun, but somehow I could look at it. I felt it’s warmth and I started to notice something in me changed too.
You too went to my isolated place far beyond the lighter and darker parts of my soul and lighted something too. We returned back to our normal world and we were standing at the lake again. We were still looking at each other. It was evening now and we sat down at the shore of the lake. It was getting darker and we were watching the sun going down without talking, as in such moments no words are needed……..
