03/10/2019 8.18 Good morning my sweet teddybear. I had a nice night with you on a tree watching the stars shining especially for us, a soft wind blowing to warm us up, birds passing by and singing us bedtime stories about far-away lands.
One large bird gave us kindly its nest that we used as a bed. The bottom was covered with dry leaves and moss that made it a soft and warm bed. Laying close to each other hugging, we fell asleep. Caring for us the birds covered us with a large branch of spruce.
That’s how I woke up this morning, seeing you still beautifully and deeply sleeping, so I covered you with the branch, kissed your lips and said: good morning my love. You moaned and fell back into your dreams. It was time for me to go, so I climbed down the tree and now heading to work.
Ah yesterday… I remember as it was like yesterday.
You in your pink pyjama went to bed earlier. You fought the cold and warmed up the bed for us, so that when I joined joy I already was in a warm happy place. Unfortunately I came a bit later and you already fell asleep. Also you removed the tree ladder, so I couldn’t walk up easily to join you. Not sure what your thought was about that. So I tried climbing in the tree by myself, but I couldn’t reach the first branch to reach it and from there climb up easily to the top where you were waiting for me. I tried running up the tree, I jumped as high as I could, but it didn’t work out. I also screamed to you really loud, but you couldn’t hear me. It was already late by now and I was getting cold.
Poor me.. I was so jealous of you in your warm comfy nest. I started crying and tears fell on the ground. Apparently there was a frog sleeping around my feet and I woke him up. The poor guy didn’t have any legs. Something with a restaurant that cut them off for money and he could help his family with this money. The frog asked me why I was so sad and I explained. He understood my problem and promised that he would help me. So he said to me: wait here. I’ll be right back. Only now I realized that he had a little wheelchair and it made a squeaky sound that I probably will never forget anymore.
After like 10 minutes he came back. Listen he said to me. Over there in the grass is a horse. Talk to this horse and help her out, and we will help you with your problem of going to your love. So I walked to the horse. It was actually a beautiful merry with almost a gold color skin. She introduced herself as Jane. It made me actually laugh a bit.. merry Jane. Anyway I started to talk to her and she told me that the frog told about my problem getting in the tree. She said she was willing to help me if I could help her. She told about how fabulous she looked like, but the problem is that everyone thinks she’s super posh and afraid to walk to her. So she just wanted to be normal and ordinary like most horses are. I had to fix it for her. So I came up with the idea of covering in mud and she was happy, but then it started to rain and her beautiful golden skin came out and she became unhappy again.
Only now I realized what was going on. So I talked with her and said: dear beautiful horse, dear merry Jane. I can imagine you feel unhappy with your looks. I truly do. Most other people think you are out of their reach, but that’s not fair for them and for you. Those people might think they are not good enough for you. Really she said? Yes, I think so. Of course if a beautiful stallion came and he would go to you directly, but that’s not how things are now and in the end it doesn’t really matter. It’s about you. Do you stay here waiting for people to come or do you show your good heart and help those around you. Slightly stuttering she said the first. Only because I’m afraid that people will not like me. Ah you see I said. Trust me I said. While you look beautiful on the outside I can see that you’re in the insight even more beautiful. I know this because I talk to you and I see it, because I can see the truth in your eyes. Tomorrow is a whole new day and start talking to the people around you, join them in their conversation, help them when they are in need.
Perhaps our frog friend could need some help too, but for now I would be really grateful if you could help me reach that branch over there, so I can climb in the tree to the woman I love and that is probably now in a deep sleep, while waiting for me. You’re right said Jane. It is about me and the way how I behave. I can’t wait for people to come to me, if I’m afraid to walk to them too. Let me help you now. Thank you for this conversation and giving me this new thoughts. Just climb on my back and from there you should be able to reach it. I did and it actually worked. Finally, I could reach the branch I looked so long to reach it. I climbed up and found you on top of the tree. I woke you up a bit with my kisses and hugs and then we both fell in a deep deep sleep…
^awesome
